It has almost 3 months since embarking on my new job. Life does seem slightly better after switching back to an ordinary and normal lifestyle which I think I've changed a lot in certain aspects... Well I was just asking myself whether I did the right thing in chooing this present job where I have to account to customers for their purchasing orders and doing some paperwork as well.
I do face a lot of pressure whereby I've to run down to the production floor, making sure my workers sre doing their jobs and processing delivery orders. On the other hand, I do receive complaints from some customers which's really exasperating. A person who doesnt reveal her temper in front of others often, well, i guess it's I just have to stick to my job without having to complain whatever S*** i'M facing now. Whew!!! In regardless of how much effort I've to put in, esp when I do OT with no extra pay (doing it in my own will), the amount that the company pays is really MEAGRE!!
Before I started working in this company, I was told that an ex-staff who worked with us before. was struggling with the same salary for 10 years. She was not given any credit for the work she contributed still. Because of this particular reason, she left and chose to work for another branch then. Analysing this situation, do you guys think my career will end up in " SMOKE"? I chose to take up this job, not because of desperation, but mainly due to a physical defect....
Sales was what I used to do in the past, but considering my left hearing problem, I had to lower my standards and making things easier for both myself and others. Sadly to say, I know my colleagues have been trying to put up with my hearing problem. I don't know what else I can do about it, athough the hearing aid isnt helping me much. No! I don't feel inferior about it. I just hate myself that I make mistakes when I misinterpret messages or couldnt hear properly on the phone. As much as I want to do my job well, I guess there are only limitations that I can do for now.
Love has always been something I've always wanted to pursue in my life. In my teenage years, like others everyone seemed to develop crushes on one another. Being the curious one and where the trend in relationships was growing back then, I myself also developed feelings for some guy, but I don't remember him anymore.
As I age each day, I also hope to spend my life with someone who's willing to take care of me and setlle down soon. Mike's always been the forgiving and most concerned person in my life. We are almost similar in terms of character and habits. At first I wasnt really used to it, because we were seeing each other everyday for the 1st 2 months I think.
Because he has to man many projects and due to heavy workload, we ve reduced to meeting up in the weekends instead.
At one time I felt neglected and sometimes too scared to sleep alone at night... I'm still the emotional seeker who tends to keep certain things to herself and loneliness's something which I'm being used to anyway. On one occasion, I had a "breakdown" attack and contemplated ending the relationship, as I felt myself cut off from the world.....As if nobody really cares... After some time I sort out my thinking. Well Mike's words did make some sense though. Whether u r single or married, if you are an working adult, you have to spend at least maybe 8-10 hours in the office fr morning till night...By the time u get home, you still have to have ur dinner, take a shower, maybe read some newspapers plus sleeping time.... In the end, you'll realize that you don't have much time to do anything else, especially with your loved ones and friends.
I'm not asking that my hubby keeps me company for 24hrs a day. I guess my point is, that I require a lot of attention and doting love, that's all. U can say I m quite reliant on him in this relationship. Hmmm.....All i can say is, as a girlfriend or wife, I have to be understandable about his job and shouldnt grumble about it at all. EveRyone holds a job. wHO DOESNT? I just need to learn how to manage my time better. wHEN i GET HOME AFTER WORK, yes I try my best not to think too much ABOUT him sometimes, because I'm super CRAZY about him SERIOUSLY! When a woman's in love, you'll see a radiant glow on her face. That applies to me too. And I'm getting fatter as well. Urgh!! That's why Mike says it's bad:( He gave me a nick called "PIGGIE" but i love it! Cute cute and OINK OINK!!!
hMMM..... Gotta go now. In fact didnt feel like coming back home today. But because my poor darling has fallen sick I had no choice but to drag myself home. Where else could I go anyway? I can't expect more, cos i'm an only lonely soul... Anyway hope Hubby feels better by tomorrow. Poor guy he has to go back to work tomorrow, although it's a public holiday... Sayang sayang hor... :p And to all my friends too, i miss you all. Do drop me a line sometime. BYE!
